Murderous Thought

Conference in the National Autonomous University of Mexico (UNAM) City of Mexico. 5th April 2006

Ruben Feldman Gonzalez
Translator: Domhnall O’ Brien

Interlocutor: I want to explore the problem of the murderous mind with you.

Ruben Feldman Gonzalez: Murderous thought. The mind is not murderous, the mind is an aspect of the constant movement that exists between matter and energy in all the cosmos.

Interlocutor: Is the gravity and the frequency of murderous thought increasing?

R.F.G. Thought has had a murderous, violent, terrorist and warlike aspect throughout the five thousand years of the written history of humanity.
At present there exist circumstances like overpopulation, the new family structure and its dynamic, the global distribution of poverty, technology etc, which appear to contribute to increasing the gravity and the frequency of murderous thought.

Interlocutor: I have the impression that to understand murderous thought it is not enough to understand the structure of the gene.

R.F.G. It is not enough, clearly not. The gene contains memory to synthesize protein and to determine the form of the structures that configure the human body. These structures generate molecular movements (and maybe Quantum) that constitute thought, but thought is based on knowledge, memory and experiences.
A good deal of murderous thought is based on fantasies (thought) that has crystallised in puberty with the stimulation of the cerebral cortex that the sexual hormones bring.
If the pre-pubertal thought is not adequately socialised, its tendency in puberty and in subsequent years is to create social isolation and a growth in fantasy life, at the expense of the life in the daily reality of studying, working, relating, exploring and feeling life totally.

Interlocutor: That socialisation of thought begins in the family.

R.F.G.: Without doubt. Today seven out of ten children grow up alone with their mother, supported by the state or by their previous husbands so that they can continue living alone. The only child develops a rich fantasy life with imaginary friends in front of a television during the greater part of his free time.
Those seven children (out of every ten) do not think like the children who grew up (before the world wars of the twentieth century), with both parents, grandparents, aunts, uncles and cousins, living in constant dialogue, because at that time the isolating television did not exist. Also, the children in those families were better cared for, better fed, and learned to relate before leaving the home to go to school.
The notable murderers of our times, like Jeff Dahmer and Ted Bundy lived their infancies in isolation, subject to the indifference of their progenitors.

Interlocutor: They grew up in a solitary universe.

R.F.G.: That is how their psychological universe was, so to speak, more fantasy than reality. The problem is that the fantasy ends up seeking its reality.

Interlocutor: But that fantasy does not necessarily have to become murderous.

R.F.G.: The majority of those seven out of ten children that grow up in isolation in front of the television, (generally without parents or with “many parents”, which is the same thing) develop fantasies, often very elaborate, of outright violence. But this psychological life of violence generally finds an “escape” in daily life whether by working as a soldier, policeman, solicitor (lawyer), butcher, agent or simply an office worker who climbs towards elevated positions of supervision or administration, positions from which they exercise power, control and subtle forms of violence and torture and which have as victims the supervised staff, the employees or subordinates. This gentleman does not need to go to kill or to tear anyone apart because he is already doing it “subtly” every day with some “captive audience” in society as we know it. “Office” brutality, protects this person so that he does not become a serial killer like Ted Bundy. “Office” and even “family” brutality (growing in society) constitute the “saving” safety valve and the person who lives in their violent and obsessive fantasies do not have to decide to leave the house and perpetrate illegal crimes. Their violence manifests within the law and within the institutions called “social”, “political”, “religious”, “financial”, etc.

Interlocutor: These are the admissible terrorists.

R.F.G.: Of course, society gives them permission to exercise control and terror over other people and also to create dependence and degradation without that constituting an illegal act.
A person of that sort decides to become criminal when his obsessions, fantasies, and control compulsions do not have a legal outlet.

Interlocutor: In that case there exist many potential criminals but few real criminals.

R.F.G.: Sure. The absence of Unitary Perception in the culture, in the family and in education, make it so that we don’t not see the sadness, the anger and the fear each time that they arise in consciousness (without trying to change them) simply seeing.
Fear, anger and sadness are accumulating from childhood (above all in abused and despised or neglected children) and transform into fantasies. If the person in this predicament has a position of power, they could unleash their anger exploiting, controlling, dominating, terrorizing their subordinates: they don’t even need to cut their throats.

Interlocutor: The anger obsession is seen a lot in domestic life.

R.F.G.: Very clearly. And also in all of society. Just look at the faces of those who drive cars in any big city. The woman who beats her husband, who shouts at him, who insults him and degrades him, who throws porcelain plates at his head etc, does not need to kill yet. If she does not have a husband, she has her poor children on whom to exercise these behaviours.

Interlocutor: It is clear that the man also does this, the father of the house.

R.F.G.: It is rarer, because the man who is like that, is already in prison. But the police and society tolerate those dominant behaviours much more easily in a woman than in a man. A woman who beats her children and her husband does not end up in jail. The man does. Despite this, seven out of ten children, live without a man in the house, with women who could be like that. These are statistics, I am not inventing anything.

Interlocutor: Many use drugs and alcohol to control these criminal obsessions.

R.F.G.: Of course. They want to control their obsession in a way (intoxication) that is destined to failure. With drugs, alcohol and even prison, these people, full of fantasies of anger, become worse than before.
I often wonder why people bring sons and daughters into a society that is not fit for children, and is not designed to look after children in a caring way!
One in two children will have to go through the divorce of their parents, a divorce which is big business for the solicitors (lawyers). Seven out of every ten children live with only their mothers.

Interlocutor: Television shows programs of horror and violence that children see and this causes a lowering of the threshold of inhibition for acts of horror and violence. To look at television is an act of hypnosis in favour of violence.
On the internet there are groups who offer instructions for abducting children, to kill silently, to abuse children sexually, to terrify them so that they do not speak, to hide weapons, to fabricate bombs, and also to exchange photos of children in sexually degrading and violent poses.
In this way, the number of people who live on the verge of committing criminal acts has to grow.

R.F.G.: Murderous thought is formed progressively in time, from infancy itself.
Growing up in an environment deprived of affection, the fantasies of fear and anger grow and turn into obsessions.
These children want to dominate and control their environment, and cannot do it except in their imagination. Richard Speck killed eight students of nursing in Chicago 1986. In prison he got a live bird that he wanted to look after. When the guard told him that he could not keep it, Richard said that if it was not going to be his then no one else was going to have it and threw it between the blades of a moving ventilator, which cut it to pieces in an instant.
The fantasy of dominating, possessing and controlling are progressing. Jerry Brudos was a serial killer who wanted to detain the disdain of his mother by hiding a pair of her shoes when he was still a child, for which he received an abusive chastisement at the hands of his mother. Then he hid clothes of his sister, progressed to stealing women’s clothes that were drying in the sun and then learned to enter other houses and steal their women’s shoes and underwear.
He progressed, and wanting to photograph women in underwear, he threatened one of them with a knife when she refused to do it. When a young seller of encyclopaedias called at the door of his house, he let her in and murdered her. From then on, once the fantasy seeks its reality and finds it, it is no longer possible to live in the just imaginary obsession. Jerry Brudos continued murdering women up to the end and progressed in this act up to the point of mutilating the breasts of some of them, breasts which he carefully hid in a big refrigerator.
In that same refrigerator he hid the foot of a feminine corpse flaunting an attractive very high-heeled shoe.

Interlocutor: He was full of anger against his indifferent mother and against his absent father. He wanted to preserve and possess all that which appeared like his maternal figure.

R.F.G.: The childhood of the big killers was not a happy childhood. The warning signs are in full view. Almost all of them presented enuresis, a penchant for fire and burning things and even houses, and great cruelty against animals and insects.
Amongst the conditions of murder is the depersonalisation of the victim. The victim has to be transformed into something less than an animal in the thinking of the one who perpetrates a murder.
The presence of stress in the life of the murderer during the period of the execution of the crime has been mentioned as important because stress facilitates the abandoning of the comfortable legal zone and the entrance into the terrain of the illegal conduct of the crime in itself. Unemployment, divorce, a move of house, the death of intimate friends, can trigger the decision to cross the behavioural line that transforms obsessive fantasy into reality.

Interlocutor: These are people who are incapable of relating or even schizoid. Is that not so?

R.F.G.: In reality they are not capable of establishing deep and enduring intimacy. We see it in the population in general with the increase in the number of divorces, suicidal terrorism and conflict.
But they are not only schizoid personalities. An anti-social (or sociopath) like Ted Bundy could seduce (just by talking) the most beautiful university students in broad daylight.
It is believed that he assassinated more than 40 beautiful girls, across the length and breath of the United States. There were at least thirty two.
Maybe serious brain damage is not even necessary as was demonstrated in Charles Whitman who really wanted to kill his mother after which he climbed up a tower in the University of Austin (Texas) in 1966, killing a total of sixteen people with a rifle in broad daylight. He left his father alive.
Ed Kemper, another multiple murderer, handed himself in to the police only after he had killed his mother, a terribly dominant, cold and controlling woman. Ed Kemper decapitated the corpses of his feminine victims and buried the heads in the garden of his own house in such a way that these heads “looked” towards the window of the room of his mother. Without doubt the rejection of his parents (when not outright verbal, physical and sexual abuse) played a very important role in his necessity to control, terrorize and degrade others. Amongst the murderers dominated by their mothers are the killers of women, like Ted Bundy, Ed Kemper and George Russell.
Amongst murderers of men are those who received the contempt, the abuse and the rejection of their fathers like John Wayne Garcy and Jeff Dahmer. Nat Code was always separated from his family and his grandfather played the role of father. In a visit to his grandfather there were other children visiting and Nat forced his grandfather to witness the torture and murder of all of the children present, before being murdered himself.

Interlocutor: Why is it that the murderer cannot turn back and manage to stop killing?

R.F.G.: In murderous thought there exists a progressive deviation and a deeper disorder, once the decision has been made to kill. This is what the facts demonstrate, studying the life of many murderers. The initial crucial moment is rooted in the decision to kill, when it is no longer possible to control, invalidate, humiliate and terrorise without the necessity of killing.
The basic necessity of controlling and humiliating could be all that the killer needs, like in the cases of Harvey Glatman, Richard Cottingham, Steven Pennell and Tim Spencer.
Clephas Prince and William Heiren decided to go further in no-man’s land and enjoyed torturing and even excavating their victims.
The deviation can be even more acute and become necrophilia, (the sexual act with the corpse of the victim), as George Russell, John Wayne Garcy, Ed Kemper, and Jeff Dahmer did.
Beyond this the disorder of criminal thought is total and then cannibalism itself and the hoarding of parts of the corpse become possible.
Ted Bundy went that far (the biggest of the heterosexual murderers) and Jeff Dahmer, nicknamed the cannibal of Milwaukee, who killed more than seventeen boys and who was in his turn murdered in prison by someone who shared his destiny.
The necessity of order and comfort does not allow us to see the disorder in which we subsist and in that way the disorder becomes unconscious. This unconscious disorder, born of the desire not to perceive, has an enormous emotional weight of anger and sadness, to precipitate compulsive decisions.

Interlocutor: Then if I do not want to see that I am angry and violent, I can end up acting with great violence.

R.F.G.: Of course. It is about seeing one’s own violence without calling it violence or anger.
It is about perceiving in silence everything perceptible.
This perception in silence of what is really happening is the beginning of peace. The desire to be in peace can increase the conflict.

Interlocutor: Just to perceive everything, at the same time and in great silence allows the equilibrium.

R.F.G.: But the equilibrium between thought, society, technology and nature is difficult when all of them are in constant change and movement.
Without equilibrium, peace and coherence, thought is potentially suicidal and homicidal.
Unitary Perception of this total movement and its changes is the source of clarity, peaceful calm and equilibrium.
Unitary Perception of movement and constant change (inside-outside) opens the consciousness to reality as something undivided. Space is one, humanity is one, time is irrelevant (although it can be absolute and relative, when it is perceived fragmentarily).
In the Unitary Perception of undivided reality the perception of thought, which is also in movement, is included.
That is why self-knowledge is not something final, but something that is in constant movement.
When the ego is seen as separated and disconnected from the social, technological and natural movements, there arises a basic conflict in the perception of reality, and this perception becomes fragmented and potentially dangerous for human life.
There is a consciousness of undivided reality that cannot be thinking, because this is inexorably limited.
It is possible to think about something, but to think about undivided reality is just another thought and not the consciousness itself of the undivided reality of man, society and the cosmos.
This consciousness of undivided reality (beyond thought) is Unitary Perception. The eye sees undivided reality as colours and the ear as sound, at the same time.
Unitary Perception does not favour the treatment of the race, the nation, the family, the occupation and humanity as independent and disconnected entities. To think about all of this as disconnected is completely against the dignified and enduring survival of humanity.
In psychology, the mind is not studied and in physics, matter is not studied, due to the search for immediate (and fragmentary) results.
The introduction of undivided reality in the theories of relativity and quantum physics will put order on the comprehension of matter and energy. In psychology, the study of what is and what is not Unitary Perception, brings as a fact and not as a theory, great individual peace, tremendous physical regeneration and profound communion between the human beings involved in this study, communion which in its turn favours the spontaneous responsibility of the individual.
Unitary Perception of language shows us clearly (on saying “I see the house”) that the language is structured rigidly into subject, verb and object and that every action born in the subject (I, you, they, etc.) acts on an object or on a subject. This is incoherent with the Unitary Perception of total and constant movement of undivided reality, which rather than subject is pure verb.
Undivided reality, rather than being a subject called “God” is a verb in gerund form (the verb Loving). We see in this way the fragmentation inherent in thought and its products: language and subject.
On the other hand in the verb (perceive unitarily), thought, subject and language are irrelevant.
The use of the verbal gerund (“seeing”, “hearing”) favours Unitary Perception, which can only occur in the present. Unitary Perception is the verb of verbs, the fundamental action of the mind, which includes thought but goes beyond it. Unitary Perception commences when language is suspended and all sound is heard and the weight of the body is felt, at the same time, without effort, whilst thought is perceived as though it were another sound without wanting to change it. Seeing the interior violence is not to desire to be peaceful.
In Unitary Perception there arises the basic understanding that thought exists but not a thinker and that it is thought that invents an imaginary thinker (Rubén in my case), but also, what is just as important, it can invent humanity separated from the individual.
When this occurs, thought disconnects and fragments all human activities, even to the point that these become dangerous to the survival of mankind.

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